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Thank you jen, and kyler for taking me out last nite, and keeping me company. Next time it’s my treat.

well this morning was messy.

i overslept. i picked up the wakeup call, but thought i could doze for 10 _more_ minutes.
the cab was late. he thought i asked him to be there at 730am.

i missed the 645am flight, but good for me there was another one at 7am.
I made the connection, to the puddle jumper with 10 minutes to spare, and yet again i had my own private twin turbo prop airplane.

how fun :)

airport security blows. it is just such a fucking hassle to have to take out the laptop, while holding all my shit, and balancing on a cane. at least at john wayne, i got to skip the security line, and got quickly to the main hassle.

now the waiting game.
what to do
ensnared in boredom.

Hiya

hola all,
i haven’t been lurking around much as of lately, but I’m glad to see that everyone has had a decent x-mas.
i myself am stuck up here in lovely cold napa, ca.. visiting of all things family.
since the last time i was actually around them all, i was shorter, younger (13-14) and on some kind of track somewhere. now here i am, 22 with the back of a 75yr old, sitting on my mom’s laptop, connected to her wireless dsl, with the urge to go on here. odd isn’t it.
being around family reminds me of how much i don’t really care to be around it all, maybe a short burst here and there, but these past 4 days, have been tiring, and way too overly friendly for my tastes.
i can deal with my sister ok, for longer periods of time than this, but her BS factor seems to have risen with the introduction of family that i have been estranged with for the last 1/4 of my life.
i haven’t seen my mom in forever, or my cousin Michelle, who now has a 18month old baby boy (seth), who looks just like me from what everyone says. im not too sure, but the females say its true, so i guess ill just have to believe them…. the odd thing about seth is, he’s got blue eyes, while his mom, and his dad, have brown ;p
so yea, it was strange staying at there house last nite, for xmas eve, and day, but at least i got to get semi drunk and smoke a cigar in between the sarcastic nature that is my family.
hmm, i swear my sister just likes to make me feel uncomfortable, she likes to bring up shit, that i think just should be put to bed. im here now, and i decided i wasn’t going to give myself a choice on staying home, and just come up here, and see how things fit.
to my surprise i get spoiled by my mother, i got new shoes, and some power tools, which i think was way more than i deserved, but i guess i made her happy for coming up here. its just odd, when your at home depot and your mom is throwing expensive power tools at you, and all kinds of other stuff to go with it.
neg is happy, but then again he is always happy when I am near, but unfortunately i was unable to bring him to michelles for xmas day/eve, so he stayed at my mom’s alone, for way longer then i like to leave my baby alone for. but he made it, i made it. he likes her big backyard, there is soo much space for him to run around and play, and do his business.
its always interesting to see how much we’re like our family. my sister and cousin Michelle are two of the gassiest creatures ive met. my mom and i, both drive like maniacs, and seem to comment of the same habits of other drivers on the road.
it’s weird to see how my mom, is the acting grandmother to seth, because michelle’s mom, is semi-estranged too. i also talked to my uncle Richard earlier, and he seems about the same as when i last knew him.
time for a cig, maybe ill figure more to write while i puff away…

saturday excerpts

u could say i have too many doors open, and my leg irons wont allow me to get more than my head in each door

im tired of dealing with the now
the only thing i have to look forward to is the future
as soon as my condo is done in escrow, ill be gone
not sure where to though
im not sure if ill keep my workers comp cases either, coz they cant even get me treated properly

destination unknown
probably gona get a place in SD for a couple months with my sis
just to get away from here
then after that i dunt know
im gona invest my money from the condo sale
and sit on it for a lil while
maybe buy some commercial property
start a life somewhere

i worry too, but only because i have no positive goals that are within my immediate reach
im really just trying to keep together much of the time, its easier now without that bastard here

i didnt even smoke all week till last nite, when i was talking with my neighbor henry
we talked for about 5hours or so
just about life
its hard to see how people slow you down
i always seemed to do ok, if i didnt have another person around me, like Brandon or Chris
i had fun
i admit, but its too fun, when u have someone to do nothing with all the time
Brandonhad a reason though for what he did, his reason, “payback”
and he wouldn’t leave when i told him to
so i shove, and he moves, and then he tries to throw shit in my face
henry and my sis say i should just let him destroy himself, and laugh at him when i am on top
i was about 10min away from fleeing to Vegas for the weekend, to get away from it all, but as i settled down, and couldn’t get a kennel for neg, im back to being here and depressed
forcing myself to do what i know i need to do.
i cleaned up around the house today, did the dishes n stuff
i didn’t do laundry in like 2 weeks
but i got around to it today
its lonely on the bottom, but at least i know i cant hurt myself, except for my own mind

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