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For the first time in many years I got a date on Valentine’s Day.

I have a shitty headache at the moment, so I’ll try to say this quickly.

It’s a group date, just me and a few people.
It’s not what I would call a romantic thing although it is a hate filled relationship.
I want to feel better, but they just hate me, so I hate them back.
We all know love and hate, are similar emotions.
I get to go before a Judge again concerning my Workers Comp issues.
I went before a Judge ~6-7 months ago. Noticeably not a lot has changed or progressed.
I still feel trapped and betrayed by the insurance company, and the system itself. For me time goes by in weeks, and months, not days anymore. Everyday I wake up with a headache, or in some kind of pain. I’m tired.

I hate traveling, its painful. Hopefully a lot will be accomplished during this trip. Having to go to California is expensive, between travel expenses, dog boarding, hotel/motel, and also car rental. I honestly think it would be more efficient for me to live in California.

OK, that’s enough before I just start rambling, and make failed attempts at any more humor.

“It is the heart of our nature to feel pain and joy, it is an essential part that makes us what we are.”

-captain picard. “The Bonding

[tags]california, valentines day, travel, workers comp, judge, pain, star trek TNG, quote[/tags]

waiting…

so today went well from what i’ve absorbed so far. it was painful, uncomfortable, and that’s just from sitting, waiting to figure out what’s going on. i went before a judge, and things look like they’ll be moving ahead once more. i just need to make some seemingly difficult decisions about how to proceed next.

[tags]workers_compensation, california, judge[/tags]

good thoughts wanted!

next week i’ll be in California.
i’m extremely uneasy when it comes to this.
Hopefully I won’t accidentally make the evening news.

you all know this whole WC, SCIF crap is the bane of my existence. Now we add the legal component, and I’m deeper in a world I don’t want to be.

I remember back several years, a few months after it started, and I remember crying for a n entire night thinking and worrying about my quickly changing life, and not wanting to be apart of this system.

I want to freely live my own life, get better, and be treated properly. Is this too much to ask for?

So if your brain happens to have a few spare cycles next Wednesday, 2006.06.14, around 8:30am, I could really use your good thoughts.

RANT

well i’m dreading what’s to come. each day my depression seems to get lower. i don’t know what will happen, or the outcome if it will be favorable, or if the system will completely disappoint me. the culmination of the last 5 years of my life will be meeting when i go before a worker’s compensation judge on june 14th, 2006.

1784 days after i got physically injured and my life changed.

9388 days after i was born.

roughly a fifth of my life wasted.

i had hoped to be living a full life by now. i used to feel “ahead of the game” in life.

i see how much my friends have accomplished over the last 5 years and i’m jealous.

every shred of pain is a reminder what i’ve lost. the most valuable thing we hold true.

a physicaly active and healthy life.

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>>>>>>> .r246