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I’m feeling mighty sore still …

I’m feeling mighty sore still from my workout the other day. Ugh, I was more tired before that fraking spider.

fucking bullshit spider fears …

fucking bullshit spider fears especially on a night when my TMJ is bugging the crap outta me.

that fucker was up in the corn…

that fucker was up in the corner on the ceiling above my desk and I went for the smash, and it looked good. i went for the peek,it escaped

failed in my attempt to squash…

failed in my attempt to squash a spider in my bedroom. thinking about just crashing on couch.

"What’s the point of writ…

"What’s the point of writing an update about yourself if you feel the same and nothing’s changed." -Feeling Blue

Firefox fans come join the PMO…

Firefox fans come join the PMOG. http://hellotxt.com/l/pLBm

/me is feeling buff-er…. mmm…

/me is feeling buff-er…. mmm sandwich

…procrastinating on going to…

…procrastinating on going to the gym. :

this is Friday

About a week ago I was in the dumps, and today I’m doing OK with little progress, a few exceptions and notes.

  • I’ve been to the gym three times this week.  Going to try to go at least every other day to push myself.  It stated out as just a two week trial, but they had a deal going where it was $80 to start, and $30/month for access to the California clubs.  Seeing the deal, I got the membership to Bally Total Fitness which lasts for 36 months.  SCIF authorized 6 months.  Today I started keeping track of my limited routine in a notebook.  I’m only working out with 5 machines.  Mainly right now I am using the recumbent bicycle at the beginning and end of my work out for a total of 30 minutes.
  • Last week I made an appointment for a consultation with Barrington Psychiatry of Newport Beach, and the soonest available was for July 7th.  Which didn’t surpise me, any place SCIF has sent me to for psych has had a multiple month wait to be seen.  So this week I was able to get a sooner appointment on May 12th with another doctor whom my [tag]primary treating physician[/tag] recommended, and this visit was authorized by SCIF.
  • In the mail today more crap was delivered to me from SCIF again reminding me that I need some form of digital document management system to better contain the insanity.  SCIF was again nice enough to send me someone else’s private medical records to boot.  It’s shameful the Worker’s Compensation industry are not held to the HIPAA standards of privacy, portability and liability.  I’m half tempted to mention the persons name here in my blog. I believe they might have an opinion as to how SCIF manages their “confidential records” records.
  • My computer crashed twice while writing this blog post.  I am continually glad WordPress has the automatic draft saving feature.
  • Last Saturday I got to see a couple old friends I haven’t seen since before I got hurt.
  • Last Sunday went to the water park with jen0r, kyrone, and their son Hayden.  It was very pleasant in the heat of the midday to just idle in a body of water.  I haven’t been in a pool in a long time.  The water has the nice effect of relieving my back pain thanks to bouyancy.
  • This weekend more social activities are in store for Saturday.  Plans unknown.  Hopefully I won’t be too sore tomorrow from today’s work-out.
  • The highs and lows of my depression are still there, but it seems to happen with more frequency, and less duration this week.

"Once you let your grief …

"Once you let your grief become anger it will never go away." - Benjamin Linus

Hope for change in the future …

Hope for change in the future is all I have. My existence is only so finite. Everyday passed is another reminder of what I lost.

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